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Mental and Public Health Enthusiast, Student Research Assistant and DID Patient

This is the start of something new! Today I was definitely diagnosed with dissociative identity disorder (DID, synonym: multiple personality disorder) after an odyssey (lasting for years) with inadequate diagnoses and corresponding therapies. I must confess — I am not suprised! …


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As I mentioned in previous posts, living with dissociative identity disorder (DID, syn: multiple personality disorder) seems terrifying and challenging at first sight -and, it is! The frequent memory lapses, mood swings and self-injuries tug at the nerves of oneself and of people in close vicinity. A central part of…


Rarely have I heard words in connection with mental health more often than “resilience” or “coping”. These words are used almost inflationarily in the media these days — all the more so in times of pandemics, when the mental health of the population is increasingly suffering. Bookstores are literally flooded…


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Welcome back to my blog “Be Many!” that covers topics surrounding dissociative identity disorder (DID, syn: multiple personality disorder). Today I will continue my series that deals with perspectives of different ego-states (“personalities”). In it I describe a typical day/situation from the view of a single ego-state. These articles are…


“Be Many!” is back — this time with a new story that nicely highlights an issue with dissociative identity disorder (DID, syn: multiple personality) — the social scorn associated with visible self-injury. I know — it’s another uncomfortable topic I’m bringing up. I experience things almost daily that are extremely…


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My last conscious memory was of lunch at home. It follows: Nothing! The next thing I consciously perceive is the hustle and bustle of an intensive care unit in a hospital. What happened? I’m lying in a hospital bed, hooked up to surveillance monitors, asking a nurse what’s wrong with…


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“Which drugs did you take?” or “How dare you?” — these are sentences I hear a lot after I injured myself. Further, something I am being asked a lot by people which surround me is, how they should react when I am in a ego state that shows self-injurious behavior…


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It is 2am and I am wide awake. Suffering from real nightmares followed by panic attacks and a chaos of inner voices hinder me from sleeping. I already tried several mental exercises to “calm down” the system — unfortunately without success. What should I do? It is typical for patients…


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Welcome back to my blog “Be Many!” that covers topics surrounding dissociative identity disorder (DID, syn: multiple personality disorder). Today I will start my series that deals with perspectives of different ego-states (“personalities”). In it, I describe a typical day/situation from the view of a single ego-state. These articles are…


As you know from previous blog posts, I lived for years with the “not quite right” diagnosis of Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD). This diagnosis came about primarily because I often have mood swings, self-harm, and have problems forming relationships. In addition, I exhibited dissociative episodes and heard voices — which…

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